Pain is such an abstract concept. People experience a broad range of pain in their lives. It is intertwined with living. I’ve long tried to put my pain into words or images. I cataloged my pain in diaries and journals reaching back as far into my past as my ability to write. Some days it […]
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How well do you know me? Do I describe myself the same as you would? Across clues: 7. Sturdy loyal worthy of rank of yeoman 8. Showing love and kindness towards others 10. Unpredictable mood swings 14. Thinking seriously and deeply often for long periods of time 18. Careful and wary 20. Original in style
So I’ve made it quite a ways through the book. The exercises are much more action based than writing. But the most recent exercise was to create a crossword puzzle that describes us using the letters of my first name as the starting point. Y is a difficult letter to work with I must say.
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Thursday was a really bad day for me. I went through an emotional ringer. Yesterday was better I wasn’t upset in the same way anymore. I went from crying and hurting to angry and now I am sitting in a state of cold indifference. I have no shame to bear for having the health problems
I haven’t felt the way I feel today in probably a decade. Went to the doctors office to get accommodation paperwork filled out for work. My primary care wasn’t available so I saw a Nurse Practitioner. Now I have been seening Ampiaw (my primary) for 10 years. She filled out the paperwork for my high
Today is a difficult day for the family. Today marks the 10th anniversary of Papa’s death. I fell asleep around 4 in the morning to Loretta Lynn’s rendition of Peace in the Valley. Then on today of all days Reverend Grace gave a sermon that started with Johnny Cash. Of all the musicians that could
I decided I’d just sit around and go through some old papers after I got bored with resting. Found some funny stuff, lots of angsty journals. But one thing I found I’m still processing how I feel about it. It was my CHS sophomore transcript. Now sophomore year was the year I was pressured into
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A few weeks ago I was recommended a book called Celtic Ways to Pray by Ruth Lindberg Pattison. I’ve only begun reading it. I can’t explain the effects it is having on me yet other than to say its absolutely positive and validating some of my own beliefs. I would love to share some of
My mood swings are getting to be more frequent and more irrational. Last Monday we lost Flash, I morned all week. But even through the morning my moods would run wild. From blind rage to bottomless sorrow to pure mania driven spurts of functionality. I had joy and peace dabled in their as well. It
I woke up this morning and my chest was tight. I wanted to puke. I wanted to bawl. I opened my curtains to let in natural light. I saw the most heartbreaking scene I’ve seen in a long time. Sweet Precious was sitting on the hill, not unusual, but her posture was crumpled in. She