I know it has been a long time since I sat down and wrote anything. I haven’t felt like my thoughts were clear enough to put into words. I’m still not exactly sure what to say but I know the first step is just saying what is on my mind. In October I moved up […]
Today is my first day acknowledging All Saints Day. I watched the National Cathedral prayer service this morning and realized just how beautiful the concept and purpose behind this particular feast day is compared with the others I have read about this year. It feels rather poignant at the moment. I have left my kin,
As of the 30th of this month my time at my current job will end. The realization that this is nearly a week away is both exciting and somber for me. Over the last year and a half I grew to truly love the company. I developed a passion for my work. More than these
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Today we have the written words of countless books available at the single touch of an icon. In many ways technology has broadened access to books and therefore knowledge by providing digital copies of vast numbers of texts. Personally however, this is not my preferred method of reading. I am a rather antiquated person. I
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Warning this is a heavy post. I’m finally processing my history and feelings around why I left and how it has affected me throughout my daily life since. As many of you know 8 years ago I walked away from the religion that had been the very epicenter of my life. 18 years of growing
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If I am being honest with myself the act of asking for help is perhaps the greatest of all my weaknesses. I do not understand why I struggle so much to do so. I know for certain that it is not because I believe I know all and am capable of doing everything myself. When
Everyone has their favorite season, mine just happens to be autumn. Spring and Summer are always so overwhelmingly energetic to my soul making me anxious and exhausted. Winter, namely the dead of winter, often feels heavy and inescapable. Autumn however is just right for renewing my spirit. In the autumn the world feels calmer as
Tomorrow marks the 3 week point of Mama being hospitalized. And close to the 3 week mark of her being in ICU. I have lost track of when she went on the ventilator. The days have blurred into one blob of time. They are moving too quickly but also too slowly. It doesn’t feel like
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In the last 11 days I have attempted to write roughly 20 different posts. It feels as though I can’t find the right words to say what I’m thinking. Mom is still in the hospital. She has been in since the 3rd. She is also is still on the ventilator, this marks day 8. Daddy
This has been an intense and distressing week. Mama is in ICU with sepsis. Today they took fluid off of her foot in 3 places. Tomorrow they test to see if it has entered the bones. While I feel as though I am drowning in fear, anxiety, and loneliness I have been constantly reminded that
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